Change

It's a tough challenge that life is full of.  Sometimes it comes when we don't want it or expect it, other times life sort of taps us on the shoulder and whispers in our ear that it's time for something else.  The latter can be just as tough, but we, or at least I, have a slightly easier time transitioning. 

Lately I have become really discontent with where I am and what I'm doing.  Is it just a phase?  Maybe.  I like my job, love my coworkers, I love my friends.  But some things have surfaced in recent months that put the idea in my head that maybe I just need to start over somewhere else.  Find new people, places, activities, church, school (for future reference to finish my degree), what have you.  By start over elsewhere, I mean move.  Away.  Far away.  I have my sight set on the east coast.  But for now, this is simply an idea.  Nothing is anywhere close to final.  Speaking of change, I could totally change my mind, though it is getting to where I am going to have to have a REALLY good reason not to move.  I just don't feel like Arkansas has anything for me anymore.  Most of my friends will be moving away in the coming months.  This happened a few years back when my friends were graduating college and taking jobs in different cities and states.  I felt extremely alone.  That awful, scary, depressing feeling.  To the point of tears.  That feeling is slowly coming back.  That feeling that I really don't belong anywhere or with anyone.  That unsettling feeling that no one really knows or cares what is going on with me (which isn't true, I know) but I'm not close enough to anyone for it to matter one way or the other. 

I kept this short, but that's what's going on now.  I have at least a year to decide what I'm going to do.  If you would pray for me, I would appreciate it.

Love to all,
Whitney